Condemned by my own accord...
I tie my own noose... and I tie it tight... I might as well fling the rope over the rafters and kick the chair. I condemn myself daily. Past mistakes keep coming back to haunt me. There’s no joy in that... the scars remind me of my lack of intelligence, my lack of dedication... my lack of perseverance. I forget that I am standing in His grace and that that grace is sufficient. Is it? Cause I don’t believe it... I don’t know why... I SHOULD believe it... but my short falls tell me different... The enemy whispers in my ear that there is NO POSSIBLE WAY that He loves me... I have disappointed him way too many times. No amount of love can overcome that. Lies... I know. But I can’t help giving thought to those lies... that somehow there is credibility in what he says... So here I stand... in His grace with a noose tied around my neck. What am I doing?
I look to Him... and he speaks to me. His words cut through the rope with the skill and accuracy of a sword... as if were a strand... and for the moment, I am free. Until the next time... if ONLY I could remember:
Romans 8:1
There is therefore, now no condemnation, for those who are in Christ Jesus.
posted by Greg at 10:08 AM
13 Comments:
you're speaking my heart right here, how quickly i forget His grace, His love, His forgiveness
and also how quickly I listen to the other voices and belive their lies
This is AMAZING, thank you for sharing it
10:32 AM
Scars are not pretty, but they remind us of the experiences of our lives and who we are now.
I condem myself today...I condem myself tomorrow...He loves me forever.
11:38 AM
Here via Kpinion.
Satan tells me daily that I have disappointed God too many times; I need to just give up. But what a good reminder you have given us here. I'm in Christ. I am not condemned. Amen!
11:46 AM
Thank you so much for sharing this today, Ben. I always think that other people have it easier than me, even though I know better.
To know that you feel this way too makes me feel less alone. And reminds me to get back up and don't stay down when I fall.
:-) Thanks!
God is so good (I think I heard that somewhere once.)
11:48 AM
Good words.
I find that beating oneself up is a waste of time. I am very historical, I can remember doing things when I was 7 and I still feel bad for it.
I have regrets and so many failures, but I realize that they were all things that I can learn from. I have used the stones of past failures that before weighted me down, to build a foundation of knowledge that I can use to propel me forward.
Part of that knowledge is knowing that I must rely on God constantly, but also in knowing that even with complete reliance on God I am still going to fail and sometimes that is okay too. We cannot acheive perfection while here on Earth - that is what heaven is for.
You are a good man Ben, thanks for sharing this well written piece today. It not only speaks from the heart, but it calls attention to the need for Christ and the constant reliance on Scripture which is the only weapon that we need to battle the demons that torment us on a daily basis.
12:21 PM
for some reason, the entire time i was reading this, i heard eminem's voice rapping it.
4:36 PM
Wow Ben: thanks for sharing this. After all: who of us can't relate to this?
4:41 PM
katie just told me my comment doesn't make sense. does it not? because it makes perfect sense to me.
4:47 PM
Wow. I was just emailing my mom about going through this! Do you mind if I save you on my favorites?
8:04 AM
Leaving a second comment because Katie told me to do so... and I ALWAYS do everything she says.
9:59 AM
I have never struggled with God's love. I don't know why. I sometimes think that I am just crazy because I never question it. Although I fight a different battle all together. I fight the battle of God being a reality in my life. That's where I struggle.
10:56 AM
And this is why I don't come visit often - because I need a new post EVERY DAY! Sometimes two in one day! Grrr.
Did you watch Pride and Prejudice? Did you cry?
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